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Do Your Best; Baby Steps Is All It Takes…

Ok, so it’s been a very long time since I was able to run for any more than a few minutes at a time. I think I was 11, in all honesty. I was really good at it too, until my hormones found my weak spot (junk food) and that was the end of that. In P.E. classes I’d make excuses not to get involved in anything too physical, which, considering the main gist of the class was to BE physical, meant I was ‘on my period’ or ‘not feeling great’ pretty much every other week. I did like dance & aerobics though, so I wasn’t a total lazy moo! 😀

Fast forward approximately 18 years. Today, I discovered that I’m not as fit as I was in May/June of this year. Back then, there’s no way you’d call me fit, but I was able to walk 10km for charity in just under 1 hour 45 minutes! I’ve been walking regularly all this time and don’t usually have a problem with distance walking, so I figured it was time to push myself to what I consider the next level – ‘Couch to 5K’. I got my feet, legs & knees assessed on this fancy gait measuring machine on Tuesday (I’m pretty sure it has an official technical name) then bought great running shoes that are the correct fit for my feet (Asics GT2000 if you’re curious to know) 😀 They feel AMAZING! Now, I have a little bit of healing to do as I have fallen arches and I’ve done some damage by wearing completely flat shoes all the time, but once the foot is properly healed there’ll be no stopping me!

Anyway, back on topic – earlier I got myself all ready for my first ‘Couch to 5K’. I was motivated and ready to get started. The app on my phone told me to begin with a 5 minute warm up walk. That was perfect. Beautiful weather & no other humans around so I felt a little bit more confident. Then the app told me to run for 1.5 minutes. Wellllllllll, I did about 10-15 seconds of that run and I realised I was fooling myself. I also realised I needed some added support in that area where women generally need extra support… I had set out with every intention of running for 1.5 minutes and walking for 1 minute, repeatedly for 15 minutes, but realised within those opening seconds that I had my priorities all wrong and I’d set my standards too high, too soon. Everything was burning – throat, calf muscles, knees, the foot that’s meant to be healing… So I hobbled home with my proverbial ‘tail between my legs’ and re-evaluated the situation.

I mentioned that I’m not as fit as I was earlier in the year – I’d say I’m approximately 8-10 pounds heavier than I was then. What I need to do (for myself – everyone tackles this issue differently) is focus solely on my nutrition and wellbeing for the next few weeks. Of course I’ll continue with my brisk walks with the dog, but all AT MY OWN PACE! Once I’ve got my diet sorted (healthy, low GI where possible – NOT FAD!), I’ll feel better in myself knowing that I’m being good to my body. Hopefully I will lose the weight I have gained and then when I’m lighter I’ll rethink my ‘Couch to 5K’ goals. There’s no point in me pushing myself beyond what my body & mind can cope with. I want to do this to help myself not only physically, but mentally & emotionally too. By setting standards beyond my reach, and seeking perfection, I won’t last long and will end up adopting all the unhealthy habits that got me here in the first place.

I’ve also been learning, since seeing my CBT therapist, that low moods affect my eating issues – so when I’m not feeling anxious or depressed, I’m more mindful of my food choices. This past few weeks have been difficult for me regarding anxiety, so needless to say,  I’m a textbook case of an emotional over-eater. It’s amazing the things you learn about yourself when you’re in a room with a qualified professional. It seems so obvious now, but when you’re stuck in your own little bubble and don’t know how to cope, it’s refreshing to get their slant on it and suddenly it all makes sense!

If anyone would like some advice about where to start with seeking help, please don’t be afraid to contact me. Remember – “Excellence is not being the best; it is doing your best”

Lotsa Love

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It’s OK Not to Feel OK <3

Have you ever tried so hard to be good at something, or to feel positive about life in general, but no matter how hard you try you just feel broken inside like nothing you do or say will ever be good enough? Like you could have all the money/looks/material possessions etc. in the world but it doesn’t change a thing?
I wonder how many people are actually aware of their feelings and what they mean? Can you recognise the signs in others? Awareness & self-awareness is so important if we are to look after ourselves and others properly.
With the huge stigma surrounding depression and other mental health problems, so many of us are too embarrassed or ashamed to admit we’re not feeling the best. We’re so concerned about what others will think of us that we tend to do our utmost to paint on a brave face, smile like we haven’t got a care in the world, then fall apart once we’re back in the ‘safety’ and privacy of our own homes.
We aren’t being true to ourselves. We’re creating a façade and giving a false impression to others that all is ‘fine & dandy’ in our world. But you know that old saying “misery loves company”? I think we’re of a generation who are afraid to look glum or even complain about something as small as a headache in case people whisper behind our backs about how miserable and unhappy we are. We just can’t win! As difficult as it might feel, maybe it would be better for you to be open. Tell people that you’re feeling low. They’re generally more sympathetic than you realise when they know what the problem is, and you’re not just a “moody so ‘n so”. More often than not, you’ll actually open up to someone and discover that they are actually going through something similar, or have overcome something similar to what you’re going through. Automatically you have a connection and someone who you know won’t judge you or treat you like a second class citizen just because you’re battling a mental illness.

Please try it. If you’re a ‘closet’ depression/anxiety/other mental illness sufferer, PLEASE talk to someone. You are so worth it, and remember – “It’s OK Not to Feel OK”.

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